letting go

I’ve had it on my heart to start this blog for quite a while. I still don’t think I’m quite “ready,” but at the same time, I know it’s often best to move forward with something even if it’s not quite perfect…especially this blog. I’ve never been good about releasing something into the world unless it screams perfection, but here’s to letting go and trusting God.

Let me get right to why I’m even starting this.

In the span of a year, we experienced the loss of a parent, loss of a baby, the fear of losing my husband to covid, the fear of losing myself in labor and delivery, and the challenge of raising a child with physical disabilites. It’s a brokenness I have never known before with anxieties and fears that are very overwhelming.

Yet, in the midst of all the sadness and challenges we’ve faced, we’ve learned a lot. We’ve had to. And the prayers that have gone up for us have truly protected us as we continue to find ways to heal and handle it all. Some days it’s still really hard to get up and battle the demons of overwhelm. But deep down I know that God doesn’t want us to live our lives in heartbreak; I truly believe He is tugging on our hearts to take the hurt and turn it into something positive and constructive.

God has laid on my heart to share our story with you and the things we’ve learned (and continue to learn) in the hope that it will be helpful and comforting in some way to someone. I definitely don’t have all the answers for navigating grief, trauma, and challenges, and I’m far from perfect in handling any of this. But I think there is comfort in community and honesty. It’s scary to be vulnerable, but it can also be freeing. I’m going to do my best to be as open as I can. I’m a private person, but I do feel like the things I want to share are really important to get out in the open. And I’d love to use this blog as a way to connect with anyone who feels like they have it on their heart to share their story with me too.

Like I said before, I’m still figuring all of this out. I think it will be just as therapeutic for me to write these posts as I’m hoping it will be helpful to those who read it. I intend to focus mostly on our daughter Callie’s journey with cerebral palsy as well as bring awareness to pregnancy and infant loss in honor of our daughter Mylah. There will likely be other things in between as it relates to grief, faith, and life in general. I’m looking forward to seeing how it all unfolds and hope so much that it will first and foremost be a blessing to others.

Thank you for taking time to read this little introduction. I’ll see you in the next post.

Many blessings,
Paige

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